Invisible Barrier

I realise the distance betw me and GO is getting further and further... There seems to be an invisible barrier betw us. I have difficulty talking to him every time we met in office. I will look somewhere else but not into his face. Today, he told me that it seems that i dun like to talk to him anymore. I think he can feel that too.

I think it might becos of her. Till now i stillc ant accept the fate that he is her cousin. Everything have changed. I used to like to sit at GO's place and talk every time abt anything... and having breakfst together. I am not really sure if knowing the truth is the right thing.

Why shld i tell him that i like her in the first place? Why must he tell me that she is his cousin? Everything seems to be a joke... I realli hope we can become frens again. I realli hate this feeling now.

Sometimes when i approached him, I got a feeling that he is thinking that i am goin to ask him questions abt his cousin... although i wanted to... but i just dun feel right to make use of him...

I understand that he is trying to protect his cousin from harm. I always feel that if GO disagree letting me know his cousin then i shld just give up... but there are alot of frens out there supporting me... I m feeling tired... A love with no feedback. For so many years I have been giving my love and not getting anything in return...Love is getting sicker and weaker day by day unlike those happy endings in taiwan idol show... When will love ever come to me?

Happily Never After...