WTF??? GUARD DUTY

FUKC la.... Kanna activated for GUARD DUTY again?? y always me??? so suai... when can i ever get some rest on weekend? Stupid la... y he fever last min then say... make me rushing down to camp... i got plans for today de lei !!! I HATE GUARD DUTY! no off at all... doin free for ppl... i m jus too soft hearted liao i think....

Belated Birthday cum O.I gathering =)

Ya indeed... Only 5 of us attended the gathering. We went jalan jalan then decided to stop at Fish n Co for dinner! The food is nice we ate seafood platter and desserts. Val, jane, lay qing and ah heng gave me a surprise by ordering a brownie with a candle on it. SO SWEET :) then we took lots of pics together wif the food. The Fish n CO ppl also gave us a free icecream and took our pic. They give me a fish wallet and a birthday card! Although not many attend today but... WE R HAPPY :)

I felt drunk after drinking the LONG ISLANG TEA~ dunno y i get drunk so easily... lucky i stay quite near. We decided to take some ACT CUTE pics at the cafe :) See Above =)BoYS and GeRs lets meet up maybe once per month ok? I really missed u guys cos i felt lonely at times... i m just afraid that i will be forgotten...

Sad gathering...

I suppose to organise this gathering for O.I group... At first i vry enthu... i got 8 ppl to join de, but then yst last minute Knn so many msg me say cannot... i think now only left 4 ppl goin... i m expecting fewer... Waulau i though i first organise event will be a successful one.. who knows... I m feeling vry bad liao... I asked val to brin camera along so we can update our blog wif pics... aiya... anyway lets see later how is the response...

Quizzes

I did some interesting quizzes today...Bo liao ma :)

People Envy Your Confidence

You have the attitude and self esteem to take on anything. Failure is beyond not an option for you - it doesn't even cross your mind. People envy your ability to take on any challenge ... and they're secretly afraid you think you're better than them. You don't. You're just sure of yourself.

What Do People Envy About You?

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause. You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them. Power: force beams from your eyes

Which of the X-Men Are You?

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You Are Ernie

Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times. You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun. How you life your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you!

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

Your Mind is PG-13 Rated

Your mind is definitely a little dirty. You're naughty, but not trashy. You don't shy away from a dirty joke, and you're clearly not a prude.

Do You Have a Dirty Mind?

You Are 72% Sexy

Your Sex Appeal Is: Extremely High You're very sexy. You just have that certain something that takes over a room. You know how to attract, entice, and keep whoever you want. You are truly appealing.

How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen. Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people. You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find! People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

You Are 76% Gentleman

You are definitely a gentleman. You're very considerate and you have excellent manners. Occasionally, you slip and do something foolish... but usually no one notices!

Are You A Gentleman?

SDU?

Today i called matthew again... he promised to ask his gf to intro some girl frens to me... :) Then his gf ask if i am a SDU???? that means SINGLE,DESPERATE,UNWANTED! Omg... how can u use such words on me? so insulting sia... Btw she did think of some frens that might suit me... Lets look forward to the match making session ba... Haha.
This is the drawing i draw on sunday.. guard duty la... damn tired... nth to do to... boring.

Sian la... My mum keep changing decision on the course that i m goin to study... MAKE ME SO CONFUSED... stupid la... i jus ask her to shut up.... my head vry pain! I JUST WANT TO BE A SUCCESSFUL DESIGNER! stop making decision for me ok?

Hope everything will be over soon... looking forward to the ktv session wif poly frens this coming holiday. yeah :)

Myself

Juz finish this graphic i named it "MYSELF"... inspired from the blog from Xiao Gui's blog...

True enough.. everyone wants to be someone in someone's heart. I want to be myself and do whatever i like... I decided to put up drawing everyweek :) So peeps pls look forward :)

BTW "Frogdew's productions" is my another brand name... i got many other brandings in my mind so dun be curious whose design it is :) Haha... i can say i greedy la...

Reason for a change

I realise myself changed this few days... changing to become someone that is stronger and determined. I could say i succeeded to throw my old depressed self, learning to be strong...
I have stopped msging her, chatting and mentioned abt her... to my surprise... she viewed my frenster! Although it means nth to her, i m quite happy...

I m starting to love myself again :) I love my frens and started to find more interesting things to do other then staying at home doing nth... GO started to talk to me like frens again... i think he must hav knew i have lost interest wif her already... anyway i felt that its better that way... the barrier have shrink.

I realise myself getting stronger each time i get defeated in every single sided relationship. I learnt to climb up and learn from the experience...

Bored

Vry bored today... monday blues...

Yst learn abit of dreamweaver from cousin, hopefully can set up my own website soon.
I m tryng to create a website for all my frens to view the current activities that we have... so that we can have our gathering more easy n simple :)

I viewed her blog... quite a few ppl dislike her... they scolded her... dunno what reasons... she seems to have quite a few enemies... hope she is doing fine.

Happy Day :)

Today went NYP for interview wif gary. We shared alot of our opinions on design, i have learn alot from them also. Raixin and Song wee join us and the whole 2 hour discussion seems fun and informal... hoping we could have another round sometimes again.

After the interview i went home and we meet up again in the evening. Song Wee, Elson, Joey and me went K box to sing... quite fun but i kind of feel somethings is missing... Thanks everyone for making my saturday a worth while and enriching weekend.

Elson suggest goin clubbing next fri! Hope i can go too if i have the time and money.

Yes.. I m trying my best to forget her... I guess its goin smoothly... hope so...

堕落天使

Today is friday the 13th! Bad day as usual... I m vry sad leh... Reno told me that all the clerks in the office is having a gathering tmr for lunch... i m the only one that is not been invited :( i guess i am unwelcome and dislike by all...

I called joan to ask her go clubbing wif me... then she give excuses dun wan to go... elson even worst dun even wan to reply me...

I dun have frens la.... all dunno go where liao...

Joan keep saying that i am trying to be 堕落... I guess so... sometimes i feel like goin for beers and smoke... i just wan to feel bad... i m too good and i guess i need a change...

BAD BIRTH DAY!

Bloody hell... Knn... today is a vry vry bad day for me... esp today is my birthday... :( After COArty parade, CSM ask me to command and fall out all the men -_-lll... shit i dunno how to shout command la... make me ma lu in front of so many ppl... throw my face on the floor then kana stepped....

Then after thing TMD spend 9 HRS in the auditorium for their bloody rehersal... so many things to do liao still stuck at auditorium... After they finish their programme, then 23 SA come in n Kajiao... wanting to use for another hour!.... WAULAU my birthday today leh... vry low morale... how i wish i m vanish completely today!

Quite sad la... only 5 ppl wish mi happy bd... Ty angie, da jie, joan and lay qing... all the other frens are heartless...
My birthday wish also nv come true... useless...

CONCLUSION: I HATE BIRTHDAYS!

I HATE BIRTHDAY

Few hours more to my birthday.... I realli hate birthdays... the feeling of getting old and no sense of achievement...

Things that i want to achieve in this coming 22nd yr old:

- Live life to the fullest
- Face love bravely
- Become handsome
- Defeat the curse of no girls love me
- Become a successful and well recognised designer

Sian got to open auditorium everyday... i m realli vry tired liao... i know i m trying to numb myself... i m trying my best...

Thanks alot da jie for the bd card... i like it alot. ty :)

OUT OF LOVE... 我又失恋了

Rayxin told me she got a bf already... i guess i shld stop all my childish games... i juz dun feel rite... he ask his sis abt her... same class batch... i ask alot of things abt her... she doesnt sound the same type of gal that i imagine to be... I wish everything is unreal...

Yes... I NOW offically declared that i m out of love for the 8Th time! I really hope that the 9th dream girl that is coming on my 22nd birthday will be the rite one... i hope so. :(

我又失恋了! dear aiken pls dun feel sad...

Jokes

Here are some jokes to share.

1. A blonde girl enters a store that sells curtains.
She tells the salesman: " I would like to buy a pink curtain the size of a computor screen."
Salesman: " But Mdm, computoes do not have curtains..."
Girl: " HEELLLLOOOO......... I've got WINDOWS!!!"

2. Condom to Kotex: " When you work, I lose 7 days of business..."
Kotex to Condom: " If you fail to work once, my business stops for 9 months!!!"

3. Elephant to Camel: " Why do you have TITS on your back??"
Camel laughingly responded: "What a silly question from someone who has a DICK on the face!!! "

4. A lady visited her doctor one morning.
Doc: " You look so weak and exhausted! Are you eating your 3 meals a day as what I have advise??"
Lady: " What?? I thought you said 3 MALES A DAY???"

5. The phone rings and maid rushes to pick it up as her master is bathing.
Caller: " Whats your master doing??"
Maid: " MASTERBATING"

Funny... Share by Da jie in her office...

Learning to be happy

我想了很久 be happy is the most impt thing... I must learn to be happy like my old self... Last time used to be vry 自恋... but actually i m juz trying to love myself.

I upload some of the pics taken wif my da jie last week :) Yap... nv seen her online again for so many days... dunno when can i chat wif her again...

Stupid Go keep grabbing my arms today... he siao ar??? suddenly tryin to act so close to me... gay ar?? Sth feel so wrg wif him today... keep saying i got muscles.-_-

Maple Tree

Jia send a mail to everyone then i copy the description of the tree that i fall from...Lolx.

Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.

Quite accurate... expect the part on GOOD MEMORY!!! i dun think so -_-lll

Majin Hero Wataru! My idol

I found my most favourite cartoon at last... Majin Hero Wataru! Finally... I have been searching for high and low for this... at last found it...This cartoon is vry impt to me becos... without it... i won't be wat i m now... This cartoon taught mi alot abt life.. facing difficulties.. not giving up hope. This cartoon is produced in Jap in year 1990... I remembered the first time that i watch it is in Primary 4...

爱无力

Went running wif song wee morning 9.30am...Suppose to meet gary after the run... We went blk M... Cannot enter, locked doors need authorised card... I called gary's hp but no reply... Sian 1/2... Bo bian go eat breakfst at Mac... Gary then called back half an hour later saying postphone to next week for the interview... C first ba...

我感到 爱无力 ...

因为 ~ 喜欢她以成为我的习惯 ...

我会永远地索护她 ...

无能为力

原来爱一个人好难. I have realise all the while I have been single sided... Love doesn't exist when there isnt any sparks... Although i know no matter how hard i tried, i will nv succeed... this is life... my life... although i always tell my frens that i m used to it... i m still a human... i have my weak side... I think i belong 单恋 type... always ONE SIDED... the parallel line will nv meet one another de... Go's words 2 days ago hurt me alot... he might not realise... deep inside it hurts... he says "为什么突然对我这么好?"... he is indirectly saying that i m good to him becos i wan to get close to his cousin... I really hate this feeling... I hate to make use of others. I hate been insulted.

Today I went out with da jie... she is vry kind... trying to make mi happy becos she knows i m down lately... We went vivo watched The Reapers...Anyway thanks her alot... although it doesn't helps alot... i appreciate.
I juz wan to sing to express my unhappiness... singing to me is a way to cry... my heart is bleeding...

My mum dun understand at all... I m crazy soon... problems are all created by me... Slient is my best way to hide my feelings... This month is my PMS period again...

我感到非常 无能为力...

PMS

Waulau.. Today PMS again... dunno y vry moody... no mood to talk to ppl in office...
NO INSPIRATION again!!! aIken be strong...

I hate it... birthday coming liao... getting old soon and vry useless... NO MONEY NO CAREER NO CAR NO STEAD NO HOPE! zzz

Once again no frens too... :(

Saw this on my email... Funny stuff about marriage... u might need to consider...

Stress la

Wa dunno y suddenly so stress leh... rushing so many stuff dunno which to do first...

- Log update PPT
- RC t-shirt design
- Mayor's sculpture design
- Malay high fashion competition
- Staff meeting minutes...

Goin siao soon... then da jie say good friday go watch movie... aiya i really need a break to do my stuff... Today nv do any design stuff at all... no energy and no inspiration...

She recieved the Disc

I saw her online at last yst... dunno wat she has been doing for the past few days...
I ask her if she recieve the cd yet... then no reply as usual...
When i say goodnite... she suddenly say she recieved and like it vry much :)
Wow i m so happy... Not sure if she go and take from Go or Go pass to her... both can give different conclusion...

Anyway she nv block my msn account la... scared mi and cant slp so many days...

热情仲夏~鄭元暢

鄭元暢 vry handsome hor... so tall so suai and so confident... how i wish i m like him so popular among all the girls... watchin his another taiwan idol drama now - 热情仲夏...
Heard news that 惡作劇之吻2 is shooting soon... wow looking forward sia... VRY NICE :)

GYM Training!

Went hougang gym with sharil today... wow he damn professional man, know every machine and every parts of the muscles that different exercises train... vry pei fu... I hope that i can grow stronger and more self confidence in the 3 months training :) whole upper body aching now =(

GO got his promotion today on April fool day... funny... i msg him last nite, he dun know who m i sia... I must grow stronger and protect everyone that i love...