很想她

Today wake up at 7am... got to go to my RC to support the QI GONG anniversary event... vry bored... dunno do wat down there... aniway got free breakfast...

Jialat... I begining to think and think of her every min every where... I m feeling sick... love sick? Kept visiting her blog to c how is she doing... 很想她... 很想她... 很想她... 很想她... 很想她... Dunno what she is doin now... Hope she is fine and happy...

Dinner wif Da jie and James

Da jie vry good... know that i m vry lonely... so asked me out for dinner:) Ya.. treated me and james pizza hut... my stomach still full... cant sleep now.

Got da jie's belated valentine card today... a vry exp de card... $4++ wow... she too generous la... hope the card brings me luck and tao hua...

Ya lor... GO says he haven give the disc to her yet... realli scare that she will go n buy or rent... then my disc can throw away liao... haiz nvm lor i had tried my best... shldn't have make use of GO at all...

GO asked me why not to give her directly myself... Of course i wanted... But its seems that i got problems to communicate with her... She won't answer my phone calls, nv reply msgs and msn... dun know where she stays... worse now... i think she must be hating me and blocked my msn account... I nv disturb her wa... just only msg her once in a while... haiz... girls are so diff to understand... Y i got problems with her only but not other female frens???
Joan says becos she is the girl i like... thats why... True la...

I am vry trueful that i like her although i nv know her at all... I juz want to know her and exist in her world...

Confused fashion or product design?

Aiya... My mum kept pesting me to give up studying fashion design.. she say the course vry useless.. no hope in this local industry... i vry sad :(

She say the school fee too high... can only afford to pay one year... what shld i do??? quit after year 1? haiz... How i wish i have the money and time... i m vry vry far from my dream to become a fashion product designer...
Anyway, Alba intro me a fashion design competition... design costume for malay women... This time I must prove everyone wrong... I, AIKEN will be the winner for this competition! I wan to prove everyone wrong... who says a product designer cant succeed too in fashion??? Damn angry sia... noone believes me...

Today GO agreed to help me pass the VCD to her... I M SO HAPPY! But GO la... insisted writing my name on the nameless gift... then he go draw many flying loves and hearts with arrowss... speechless... one look will know is his handwriting la... Anyway hope she really like the gift and give me a call or msg... unlikely... i think...

Fly Daddy Fly...

I returned my clay aiken book today.. felt sad when returning.. dunno when will c the book again. :(

Aiken's mum letter (vry touching)

I read her blog that she is looking for a vcd called Fly Daddy Fly... I look for it at rivervale mall yst.. but cant find leh so sad... then today i quickly go compass point to find.. lucky ar can find... so happy... But now dunno how to pass to her leh... haiz...

Letter from Lasalle...

My mum called mi from home.. I got a letter from Lasalle! Then i rush home to c the letter... unexpectly i got in to the 1st lvl in fashion design... where the hell is the pdt design letter? then i called elson, he say he recieve yst liao, he got into the pdt design course... wa lau then he say he dun wan to study liao... say wait for another year study another design sch... what m i suppose to do? wait for the pdt letter or go for the fashion one??? fashion de got to study 3 yrs liao... haiz...

Btw i finish my clay aiken book at last... below are the last few inspiring paras...

"Stop worrying about wha other people think of you.
Be willing to take risks.
Failing doesn;t hurt. Not trying does.
You can make an impression on someone without having to win.

Listen to your heart.
Stand up for what you believe in.
Keep on the sunny side of life.
Use your voice.
Make a joyful noise."

"Nobody is perfect. But we are all born with gifts.
I am just like every other single person in the world.
I have struggles.
I have satisfaction.
I have been abandoned.
I have been loved.
I have lost many more times than I have won."

What I've taken away from all this-what I've finally come to understand-is that the greatest glory never comes from winning, but from rising each time you fail. A person is defined by what he chooses to do with his life, not by what happens to him.

Rivervale Court RC logo

My new RC launched yst! Wow i m so proud of myself... This is the 2nd time my logo launch in front of so many ppl :)
Thanks to judy who intro me the RC chairman and give me an opportunity to design the logo. Although i charge vry vry low amount for the logo... but the sense of satisfaction is priceless... One more step closer to my dreams... GDA Great Designer Aiken... Hohoho...

Took some pics there will upload later when they send me... Btw I had recieved my new name card... Yeap... Although not vry happy with the color printed... Hope can finish my Clay Aiken book today...

New design inspirations coming on the way!

Yst when out with another da jie... Wendy. She taught me quite alot wat to achieve in life... She told me abt the bird theory... quite funny but quite true... There is 4 types of birds: Eagle, Dove, Owl and Peacock. She says we both belongs to the Doves, becos we are vry emotional person.

Eagle: Vry bossy, look far but no EQ...

Peacock: Vry loud, proud and arrogrant. Centre of attraction.

Dove: Emotional, higher EQ, get alongs wif ppl well.

Owl: Vry detail, looked into big picture.

I belong to the Dove-Owl catergory... Yeap suddenly got some inspiration to do some graphic works...

New name card

Yeap... Recieve a call from print 22! My name card is eady for collection!
Yeap... Recieving on monday... Meantime just put my new name card design on my blog...

Sian... Talk to her in msn yst she nv even bother to talk to me... Sian sia... then her nick put "plus plus points for TALL GUYSS!!! 178!! omg..." Yea rite... height is still one of her main concerns...

So depressing... :(

Inspiring Book

Yap... Today planning to talk more abt clay aiken's book...
Below are some of the para that inspired me alot... wanna share with u guys :)

"You can't force people to feel things they aren't willing to feel. Not everyone will love you the way you want them to..."

"People are lonely becos they build walls instead of bridges..."

"Use disappointment as material for patience."

"He know that people don't listen to you if u start handing down orders. People don't respond to being bossed around. They like to be a part of whatever goin on. It is the value of making people happy in their jobs. that if they have a stake in their position, if they have ownership over what they're doing, then they want to make it work..."

" When you say with confidence that you gave your bes, there is really no point in beating yourself up after the fact. I learned that when you try your best, you can't really feel that bad when you fail. And the more you laugh at yourself, the less it hurts when someone else does it..."

" I finally realise that it's okay to be different as long as I'm proud of my differences. If strangers were proud of me, then why the heck couldn't i be proud of myself?" :)

Ya... I have finish reading more than half the book... vry interesting and inspiring.

Invisible Barrier

I realise the distance betw me and GO is getting further and further... There seems to be an invisible barrier betw us. I have difficulty talking to him every time we met in office. I will look somewhere else but not into his face. Today, he told me that it seems that i dun like to talk to him anymore. I think he can feel that too.

I think it might becos of her. Till now i stillc ant accept the fate that he is her cousin. Everything have changed. I used to like to sit at GO's place and talk every time abt anything... and having breakfst together. I am not really sure if knowing the truth is the right thing.

Why shld i tell him that i like her in the first place? Why must he tell me that she is his cousin? Everything seems to be a joke... I realli hope we can become frens again. I realli hate this feeling now.

Sometimes when i approached him, I got a feeling that he is thinking that i am goin to ask him questions abt his cousin... although i wanted to... but i just dun feel right to make use of him...

I understand that he is trying to protect his cousin from harm. I always feel that if GO disagree letting me know his cousin then i shld just give up... but there are alot of frens out there supporting me... I m feeling tired... A love with no feedback. For so many years I have been giving my love and not getting anything in return...Love is getting sicker and weaker day by day unlike those happy endings in taiwan idol show... When will love ever come to me?

Happily Never After...

TMNT! Turtles power banga!

Wohooo! Watched TMNT today with my bao ge... Vry nice sia... I found back my childhood memories... Last time when i was young i like TMNT alot and collected all their toys. The toys vry exp de leh... Then me and bro vry stupid de when we r young... we like to shout at the "long gang" sewages hoping ninja turtle will reply us and show their faces...-_-lll (siao gin na!)

Actually i invite her de.. but hor she say her fren bd leh... then i call momo.. then momo suddenly msg me at 4pm... so sudden find who sia? then lucky i online c my cousin online, lucky he pei me go watch... Am i so unwanted? why noone want to watch movie wif me sia??? Anyway first time go Vivo... so beautiful sia, so many branded shops there. I attached some TMNT pics.

WtF

...Wtf, who change my alarm clock timing, slping so nice then suddenly my alarm rang at 3.30am... then i stupidly change into my uniform, brush my teeth liao then prepare my stuff abt to go camp... then i look into my watch... wtf 3.30am!!!

Haiz.. dunno who la so bo liao go change my alarm timing for wat...

Clay Aiken

I went to the library at Hougang mall yst nite...

I glance thru all the books and suddenly a book catches my eyes... Wooowow!
A book on clay aiken's memoir! I quickly grabbed the book happily, then borrow another book on color combination.

Then today i send a msg to SS to ask i she is free to catch a movie with me this wed... This time, she reply damn bloody quick... i was so shock... ya la.. of course she reject lor... she say her fren bd on wed also so cannot... dunno true anot... but at least since she reply me means she is not angry with me liao.. i think...

Bo bian the movies tixs hanging in the air, so i asked momo to join me instead...

The clay aiken book vry inspiring sia... below are some phrases stated in the book.

"Her voice wasn't trained(aiken's mum), but it was beautiful. It made me feel things. It shows me how a song can be more than words and music, how when sung with soul a song carries you to another world, to a place where no matter how much pain you feel, you are never alone."

"Give people a chance to be the best they. Think well of someone and see if they rise to the occasion."

Wow, i read only 2 chapters, so inspiring sia... Sian, tmr got to do guard duty again... so depressing...

Be yourself..

Aiya.. Today my poor angel is sad... Dun worry so much ok? Angie?
Sometimes i think becos we are too free thats why we think so much... i agreed that i am like that also...

Hope we can always stay happy and fly freely in the sky...

I guess want to be who i am...
Jia You Ah Siang & Jia you Angie... Be yourself... 做自己... =)

I am vry sorry :(

I am vry sorry SS. I feel vry bad... I m just trying to help. I know i have been adding more problems... Hope you can forgive me...

Shit.. what am i doin?

Aiya.. Haiz. I felt so stupid. la... msg wrg sms to wrg person la..
I got a vry vry vry bad day today... Got to do OT in camp, reach home at 10.30pm...
thumbdrives kana washing machined... overslpt in bus... worst of all... msg the wrg person....

Sorry SS, I know i betrayed u... I was juz hoping that i can help in anyways... I knew you are not goin to forgive me anymore. U sounded vry angry in the sms... u hurted my feelings too. 我的心好痛...

Unfriendly GO!

Yes... I did go and ask my sir to help me to create abit abit of opportunity for me to meet his cousin... he disagree...
He say he is not an angel with wings and bows... not a cupid la.
Ok nvm, I will not force him... i dun like to force ppl de...
If he is willing to help, he will help de...

Yap.. Today will publish 3 blogs!!! for commorative of Aiken's New Blog!

I will share Aiken's love story then...
I had been admiring this ger for 3 years, finally we get to know each other 2 days ago! I m so happy. I cant slp at all.

We chatted in msn for 3 years, never met b4, she seldom chat to me, reply slowly...
I know I am not good for her, but I want to let her know that her "Tou Hao" Fans. No matter what i will be there for her.

Surprising things realli do happens all around us. Anywhere, any time and any where...
Remembered that KTSC have a CNY event on 1th March 07. MWO Kumar, AO (2LT Go) and me went back to office for work (so sian -_-)... Th AO system is down, so AO went to surf the net for chio bu... All so young little girls, he also interested... after viewing he went to read newspapers and i click to view... I type her name in, indeed her name and pics appear on the net. (A school flower like her will sure be posted on the net). I called AO and told him; Sir, I liked this girl vry much; I admired her 3 years liao.

Immediately, he looked into my eyes and asked me if i know who is her. I shaked my head... then he say " SHE IS MY COUSIN!" OMG, zzz Orhzz Aiken likes my cousin! zzz
Expectedly, the next morning, he told all the collegues in my office that i liked his cousin -_-lll

My new blog after 3 years...

Hello,

Finally after so long, I decided to create a blog again! Reasons?....
I seems to have alot of emotional thoughts within me... I think i realli need
a space to realise these negetive energies... (Vry complicated i know, if u understand
want i mean; we r in the same channel then.)

I tried so many time trying to retrieve back my old blog.. but :( I forgotten my password!!!
Bloody hell -_-lll. Haiz nvm, let this blog have a new start and new hope for the year 2007.

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Fusion 2007

Finally, today has come... I have been waiting got 3 yrs liao... not to see the fusion but in fact to meet her...

Yes.. i agree that i m a 大笨蛋...
I finally got the courage to talk to her in real person... I deliberately taken a half day from camp... went home early to prepare to go nyp... I made a winnie the pooh and bought chocolates for her :)

I went nyp at 4pm cos i think that timing not much ppl so that i can hav more time to talk to her... I think i m too nervous... alighted one stop before nyp and have to walk.... :(

Finally i saw her... i walked to her and say...你是shushan吗? 你好,我是伟祥...
She look at me blurly than remember that we talk in msn b4... she was so shy, kept coving her face... i m shy too :)

AO, jiarong,ahmad and jonathon came after work... i was shock... AO say he dun wan to come but dunno still come leh... i vry bad use this chance take a pic wif her together... I pass her the gifts she accepted and i m vry vry happy...

I waited for the rest of my poly frens, wahlau they all so late... Haha.. manage to take some cute pics of my junior's junior...